It’s two thirty in the morning and I sit on my bed listening to Andrew Belle and thinking. Mostly about uninspiring but totally inspiring things.
I’ve realized it’s been an eternity since I’ve connected with you. So here I am. Let’s play catch up..
What has changed?
In the past half year I got half hired for a pastoral position at this great heart warming church. I now fit in and the place has become home. I love each person I’ve met more and more each week. There are lots of incredible hearts, and I could go on and on about this one place and how it’s captured my heart in work, and how I meet God on the daily there, but this is what I’ll say about it for now. Relationships have changed me here.
I’ve learned to love myself more. A LOT more. I love my insides and who God has made me. I love spending time with myself and treating my own human. This may sound silly, but I used to hate spending even a couple minutes alone with my own thoughts, in fear that they would eat me up. Now I embrace them. They suck at times, but I am thankful that I was made to be thoughtful. In addition to the inner love I also love my body. Self love is great y’all. Self love for life!
A little more than a week ago I caved in to my first tattoo experience. Psalms 139:16 is what I’ve now placed permanently on my left arm. In His book were written, every one of them, the days that were formed for me. This is a constant reminder that my moments are all in His hands. God has taken such great care of me. My days are His, and He knows them better than I. I wouldn’t have it any other way.
There’s much that hasn’t changed. I listen to music constantly, pray often, read often, and write a lot. I spend way too much money on junk and tea, and I laugh loads with myself. I’m lazy, and tardy often (working so hard to fix this), and I dance when excitement, feelings of nervousness, and good food come my way.
Life is great. I’m still constantly learning, and for this I am thankful. Cheers to changes and constants.
I hope you are doing well. It was a long minute. Until the next, stay rad reader!