That is what I am, and it is what you are too.
I am so tired of being judged by unbelievers.. Now before I go any further I know what you’re thinking. “Jenna, but usually isn’t it the unbelievers that write about being tired of being judged by believers??” Yes. I meant what I said. I am tired of being put to shame when I make one error or when I stumble. I am tired of being told that I cannot get angry, or be upset, or cry because I am a Christian and “Christians” absolutely do not act that way.
I know what is right from wrong, but I am only human.
I am tired of being told by unbelievers that I have no choice but to forgive them immediately when they hurt me or wrong me because I am a Christian and I have to. I am tired of being watched so closely and having every single mildly wrong action that I make be shoved in my face till it no longer can do anymore damage.
I am tired of unbelievers telling me that I obviously do not believe in God if I act a certain way that may seem out of line according to their standards.
Again, I am only human.
I am tired of being persecuted even by my own family and feeling like my morals are the wrong ones because everyone else is so accepting of sin.
I am tired of being pushed down and beaten up by unbelievers.
I am tired of people expecting me to be a robot and not have emotions like a human does
I am tired of people expecting me to live life that is 100% perfect, with absolutely no room for error or mess ups, like a human would.
I am tired of unbelievers telling me that I am a hypocrite and not a Christ follower if I make a small mistake in the way that I speak, dress, live, work, or feel.
I am so tired of having to watch the things I do so closely because some unbelievers are only watching me closer.
I just feel like lately I have been going though so many ups and downs and these are some of the responses that I have received from different people, and all I can think of at this very moment are the couple of verses I read in the book of John awhile back in my New Testament devo. “If the world hates you, know that it has hated me before it hated you. If you were of the world, the world would love you as its own; but because you are not of the world, but I chose you out of the world, therefore the world hates you. Remember the word that I said to you: ‘A servant is not greater than his master.’ If they persecuted me, they will also persecute you. If they kept my word, they will also keep yours.” John 15:18-20
I am not sorry. I am only human, and although it hurts and sucks to be put down so constantly all I can do is pick myself up and try again to be as much like Jesus that I can be.
If you might have bullied a Christian at one point, or maybe you are even doing it now; I hope that this can help you have a change of heart. I know that it may seem sometimes that Christians are solid in happiness and will not get hurt because we are “covered” by this Christ that you might not yet know, but words do hurt, and we are all only human.